In many ways all I want to really be is a simple guy. Growing up however, I honestly thought for a long time that I would be a professional athlete. Either a hockey or baseball player. I suppose that might even be a pretty common thought for many kids as they grow up. Once I got into College and I realized professional sports were not in the cards, this was about the time that I was starting my own business. For several years after I started my business I thought that I would build something that would catapult my business into stardom. Building something like Twitter, or Facebook, basically some type of software as a service business. I even chased this dream for several years, squandering over 40 thousand dollars on one large scale project. Luckily before I wasted too much time and energy chasing that dream I realized that I actually didn’t want to own a large company, or even really be a part of one. I would much rather keep the company small, work at my own pace and make enough money to live comfortably but I had no need for truck loads of money to buy a bunch of fancy possessions.
As I get into my 30’s now, it is a strange feeling to realize that I don’t want to be some big famous type of person, a professional athlete or president of the United States or even president of a big company. For all my life I’ve had a great confidence that emanates from deep down in me. A confidence that has motivated and driven me. I’m honestly not even 100% sure where it comes from, but even to this day if you ask me if I can do something or figure something out, pretty much anything, I’d tell you that I can. I’d take on the challenge and direct so much mental energy and focus at it that the problem would wilt under the pressure.
But it’s odd knowing that I might never be a well-known inventor or businessman. Someone who will be studied in history books. That I might just live a completely ordinary life, be a great husband, a great dad, a great friend & accomplish some impressive feats (like renovating a 100 year old house… a feat I’m currently working on )
It’s odd though; I still cant escape that nagging feeling that my character in this game of life is supposed to do something big and meaningful that impacts the world…. I guess we’ll just wait and see how it turns out!