For the first time since freshman year of college (when I lived in the dorms) I am not tied to a year-long lease or living in a house with all of my things around me. Everything I own is sitting, hopefully not broken after a rough move, in a 5.5X7 ft. storage unit for a mere $75/month. I am taking full advantage of a generous family member and living in their furnished (people-free) apartment and I have some decisions to make!
Its been equally thrilling/depressing/terrifying/hopeful to be in this place where I feel the need to make some more big changes:
- Should I discuss with my relative about living in their apartment long enough to make it through the big work event/project I am in the middle of planning (comes to fruition in mid-November) and then quit/travel/come back to find a new job?
- Should I plan to move back home to St. Louis and find a job working as a counselor – finally using my degree as I originally intended?
- Should I look for a place of my own in this city and move in next month or the one after that; and look for work as a counselor here?
- Should I get through the work event/project thing and then move to Denver?
The commonality here is that I am definitely looking to get back to my roots in terms of the kind of work I am doing. I have learned a lot here over the year, some of that being that event planning and marketing is not really my passion. even if its for an organization with a great cause. Also common among all of these options is remembering I am an adult and planning my student loan payments out (finally consolidated) and keeping up my obligations to the 3 sets of doctors I will have appointments with over the next 6 months – and what planning that around leaving the city for a short time or forever would mean.
I was talking to an acquaintance about the paralyzing factor to feeling like all possible choices are sitting out before you and nothing is off limits. Its funny to know that even people I don’t know that well also feel this way. But I am working on just being observant. Looking around and seeing if a job option really speaks to me; doing some research about where I could travel and live cheap for a few months and what I could spend my time doing should I go down that path. And appreciating my insane fortune to have a family that loves me and is willing to put me up in a home, no questions asked.